I think you could safely call me a fool.
So now, my question -- how do you extract yourself from a relationship that was on track for marriage. Especially if you live with them? (Yea yea yea I know we probably never should have moved in together.) It just seemed so right. Now?
After arguing over simple shit like "you always give me the small piece of steak" ... (which resulted in me saying fug it then, I'm not cooking steak ever again)..... I realized I'm not meant for domesticity. I sort of always knew that. I thought, with him, it was different. I'm not so convinced anymore. I still dream of moving out the country. Still.
A friend of mine just got a job teaching English in El Salvador at an American school. My god.... that's what I pictured for myself after leaving Teach For America. June marks the end of my TFA days.... and I'm not moving out of the country. It hurts... more than it does to think about ending our relationship.
I just don't know how. Which does not bode well.